Eternity III

We all each go through every day not knowing what it will bring. This is because we are each finite individuals with limited means of perception, unable to know what we can’t perceive with our five senses. Obviously, we have various means of technology that allow us to see the incredibly small or measure the most minute or grand of quantities. But we still cannot see within the minds of another individual, save perhaps CT scans and brain probes. Nor can we see into the future.

Not knowing is the supreme problem of our finite consciousnesses. Knowing all would be the supreme problem of an infinite consciousness.

Imagine creating a universe within your mind that is as real as all that you are perceiving now. How would you make it? Would you have all that you wanted – love, health, and wealth? You’ve probably had these such of dreams while sleeping.

What seems to be days (or even longer stretches of time) can pass in dreams. Its as if our brains are running faster than reality, creating their own bubble universes off of our waking one.

Imagine your brain were even more powerful than it currently is and could make those dreams reality. Days, weeks, months, years, and eons could pass by, and you’d have the power to fulfill all your wishes. You would have everything to the point of wanting nothing. They would cancel each other out, and a state that could be described as boredom might arise.

Ultimately, not knowing is the supreme problem of consciousness, but its also the primarily solution. If we knew exactly what were to happen in every way, having all power and ability to receive everything that we wanted, we would grow bored. Perhaps, if we had the ability to attain anything we wanted, we would divide ourselves into separate consciousnesses to deal with an eternal existence of knowing everything.

This is what I believe is the meaning of life. We are all one Consciousness, one Being (known to some as God) that are beyond any sort of duality in the ideal ultimate ‘Oneness’ that is beyond. Everything that we see is one with us and a part of the dream. It all began with the ‘Big Bang’ – the primordial, eternal Oneness ‘booting up’ an entire universal program in order to spend eternity ‘productively’.

This eternal, primordial oneness is ‘being and becoming’ – its cyclical with both beginning and end existing within every moment, in a timeless eternal present.

We tap into it when we see patterns, the same pattern states within every sentence or action. We perceive it when we find truth – not the entire truth, but small sections of it – within some sort of communication between two consciousnesses.

Children are perhaps closer to that primordial Oneness, in the sense that they lack concepts in language that divide their selves from the rest of existence. Children obviously are extremely curious, and as they develop, they acquire more and more symbols and connotations associated with things.

Essentially, a young human develops their ego by learning symbols and connotations associated with their perceptions that allow it to become a singular self. Theoretically, this singular self will succeed in life, passing on its genetic and cultural legacy. But the threat of loss and death is what drives human consciousness to find its oneness with reality.

With death, this arrangement of stardust animated by sunlight ceases to run, and the consciousness returns back to the oneness of dissipated molecules and simpler energetic processes.

Eternity II

They say that nature is full of fractals.

Wikipedia defines a fractal as:

“…a natural phenomenon or a mathematical set that exhibits a repeating pattern that displays at every scale.”

Make a few Google searches of ‘the fractal nature of the universe’ or any other description of this idea, and you will come across a variety of images comparing brain cells with a simulated image of the expansion of the universe. Look at images of rivers, lightning, nerves, or the branches and roots of a tree. Lines of descent in regards to family and evolution. Fractal patterns everywhere.

What if one contemplated all the actions originating from that primal first cause? It would be fractal, like the branches of a tree.

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What if each of these branches is a ‘conscious’ decision? Essentially the idea I’ve worked out in previous posts.

Possibly certain ‘consciousnesses’ lower than the supreme primordial/eternal consciousness are aware of whole lines of actions/reactions involving certain collections of molecules. These ‘consciousnesses’ could be called ‘gods’ or ‘angels’.

This fractal relationship of consciousness could be a fanciful way to explain the ties between family and friends, or those who meet each other and have intense connections. This would be the bond between people who are ‘branches of the same tree’, speaking the same language or remembering the same memories. Connections where communication is most clear.

What if this fractal, branching view of reality could be used to explain language, song, or stories? The ‘primordial’ and ‘eternal’ could be latent within all modes of symbolic thought. Archetypes within stories, sentences, and songs could possibly all be boiled down to one ‘word’ – the eternal, unknowable, and unspeakable word. It would be pure Being itself – a symbol that means all things and nothing, beyond the concepts of duality.  Because our minds are within existence,  we can’t perceive the meaning of anything higher than it.

Eternity I

A few months ago, I was asked to define ‘the eternal’ or ‘the primordial’. Of course, being in an almost overwhelming state of romantic feelings spurred quite the answer in me.

I feel that ‘the eternal’ and ‘the primordial’ are things that people get close to during certain sorts of mental states, chiefly the state of love. I would also say that it is often touched during other moments of intense feeling such as sexual union, strife, birth, and death and it ultimately is where the line between the ‘self’ and the ‘other’ is dissolved.

It seems as though all religions give the basic idea that humanity – being finite beings amidst a seemingly infinite state of Being – crave union with that omnipresent state. To be conscious is to chase infinity – to reunite with the One. Perhaps any equalization of pressures or forces, whether they be electrical, aqueous, gaseous, or even gravity itself – is merely a pull towards unified non-duality.
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I would say then that ‘the eternal’ or ‘the primordial’ is primarily the unification of consciousness. It is the self realizing it is one with the Other, the state of emotion where concepts such as fate are real. “I and this Other are one, and the path between I and It has been there since the beginning.”  It is the equalization of water pressures and gas concentrations, as well as the attraction of comets being pulled in towards stars – all being pulled into a singular Oneness.

This is why I think ‘the eternal’ or ‘the primordial’ is most present in ideal romantic love, particularly between two consciousnesses that feel a ‘soul mate’ connection. It is like an impermanent death – being in the arms of your beloved, gazing down into their eyes as if you’re staring into the eyes of God.


Perhaps its feeling a brief union with that Consciousness that is aware of all other consciousness. Perhaps that spark of divine Being that is within us all knowingly chooses to forget its unity with the rest of creation. Perhaps when it realizes this – at the moment of death, or the final equalization of an energy exchange –  it feels an immense boredom.

Imagine existing as eternity as one omniscient and all-powerful consciousness that can see down every line of cause and effect. The one state of being before the beginning of Time, before the beginning of change – before that oneness turned into two.  Perhaps division was a destined action, and the desire for unity is present within all actions.




Within one Word, there is all meaning, yet there is also none at all. That one Word is all and any Word – yet there exists one Unknowable Word that has these exact traits. One can hear it within any sentence and every song, for its all the one Word, the one Sentence, and the One Story. As it is known to me, it is what the ancient Northmen called Ginnungagap – the yawning void, an Oroboros of being and non-being.

Within that Unknowable Word, that Yawning Void, lies the shining shapes present within Mimirs Well. These are known to me, as what they were called by the ancients – Runes – each one separate and distinct but part of a single Whole. Each Rune having its own Essence and Meaning.

The great god Odin, (whose ravens are known as Hugin and Munin (Thought and Memory) primordial shaman and ever present wanderer over the liminal boundary between this World (Dumnos) and the Other (Andumnos) as well as the Nine whole worlds that exist within the realm of Life and Death, was the first being to ever realize and grasp ahold of these Runes. Hanging upon the great World Tree, Yggdrasil, Odin had pierced his side with his Spear Gungnir, and while he suffered for nine days and nine icy nights, he finally died and realized the Runes.

Runes – in their limited number and limited meanings – divide existence into more comprehensible parts. The letters I now use to form words, the sounds they make when spoken; each sound having its own sense that to which we attach meaning. This dual nature of existence – that its both void and all – cannot be comprehended without symbols for our consciousness to grasp hold of, dividing the All into the Many. This is both the problem and solution to consciousness – we are all separate individual consciousnesses on one level but ultimately one entire consciousness on another. We need symbols to be able to bridge the gap between our consciousnesses and when two consciousnesses are on the ‘same page’ a micro-version of unity with the primordial is found.


We – as consciousness – are Time. A single point in the universe can only perceive itself. A line can perceive itself, and the single points below it.

A sphere can perceive the lines and points that make it – yet none of these points, lines, or spheres can perceive change. They exist in the stagnant, ever present – Ginnungagap – the Yawning Void.

The initial blast that caused the universe to form – the exact beginning of Change – was the dawning of consciousness. Without one to perceive change, there can be no change. Without change, there is no Time. We – as consciousness – are Time?


Sometime during July or August 2015, I had an intense philosophical realization (or spiritual revelation) that will probably forever follow my thoughts. It was almost visionary in its intensity, and hopefully I’ll be able to accurately portray it. I am no physicist nor mathmagician, neither am I a ‘New Ager’ (anymore).

It began by asking the question, “If a person does wrong, is something faulty with their ‘machinery’ or their ‘software’?” A persons ‘machinery’ being their physical, biological, chemical processes; the DNA that creates these processes, the actual ‘stuff’ they’re made out of. A persons ‘software’ is their psychological makeup, their personality, or their thought processes. I understand this is a dualistic view of what constitutes a person – in reality the two effect each other greatly – but the question I was asking was whether or not a person has complete control over their actions or thoughts.


My friend and I started out talking about the ‘Big Bang’ – what we observed in our minds eye to be the primal oneness that the multitudinous universe sprung out of. We asked, if we were to entirely destroy this universe and restart it, would it be the same universe playing itself out again? (I need to learn more about quantum mechanics, because that would go into randomness.)

We posited to ourselves, ‘What if everything consisted of one being split into two?’ – like the branches of some great tree. Everything being a binary of decisions in a matrix of binary decisions, 1’s and 0’s being spread out throughout the cosmos.


Light and dark, up and down, left and right – everything consisting of dualities, and every single atom being the end result of a continuous chain of dualities – 1’s and 0’s.

We then asked ourselves ‘What is Time?’ Ultimately, its a measurement of change. A timeless universe would be a universe in stasis. One lacking in this division of dualities, going from one to two, with each splitting off from the other. We believe a timeless universe would be one that existed before the ‘Big Bang’.

What then is change without something perceiving that change? It is changeless. Timeless.


So I posit my theory that consciousness ultimately is change, ultimately is time – and thus is everything – just in different levels.

My theory is that a dot is conscious of itself, and what a dot consists of. A line is conscious of itself, and the dots that make it up. A sphere is conscious of the lines that make up that sphere, and the dots below it. However, this ‘consciousness’ does not consist of words – it may not even consist of feelings. It might consist of mere math.

As that sphere becomes more complex, it divides itself off. It becomes more varied chemicals/elements/etc, further increasing in complexity where the conditions are right. It changes. Then it eventually becomes ‘life’ – what we consider biological – which may have ‘feelings’ – since there’s an increasing number of sensory organs.

Then with increasing complexity of interacting changes (minor consciousnesses) the biological consciousnesses further increases its sentience. I would argue that sentience is changes perceiving changes that are perceiving changes, down increasingly to the level of specks of existence.


Now, if our level of consciousness is time – ‘the fourth dimension’ – who is to say that dimensions above us are consciousnesses (changes) that perceive the change of our own consciousnesses?

This is where I argue that the supreme consciousness is a One that can perceive the change of change.

In my next post I will describe what comes out of this.