Eternity I

A few months ago, I was asked to define ‘the eternal’ or ‘the primordial’. Of course, being in an almost overwhelming state of romantic feelings spurred quite the answer in me.

I feel that ‘the eternal’ and ‘the primordial’ are things that people get close to during certain sorts of mental states, chiefly the state of love. I would also say that it is often touched during other moments of intense feeling such as sexual union, strife, birth, and death and it ultimately is where the line between the ‘self’ and the ‘other’ is dissolved.

It seems as though all religions give the basic idea that humanity – being finite beings amidst a seemingly infinite state of Being – crave union with that omnipresent state. To be conscious is to chase infinity – to reunite with the One. Perhaps any equalization of pressures or forces, whether they be electrical, aqueous, gaseous, or even gravity itself – is merely a pull towards unified non-duality.
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I would say then that ‘the eternal’ or ‘the primordial’ is primarily the unification of consciousness. It is the self realizing it is one with the Other, the state of emotion where concepts such as fate are real. “I and this Other are one, and the path between I and It has been there since the beginning.”  It is the equalization of water pressures and gas concentrations, as well as the attraction of comets being pulled in towards stars – all being pulled into a singular Oneness.

This is why I think ‘the eternal’ or ‘the primordial’ is most present in ideal romantic love, particularly between two consciousnesses that feel a ‘soul mate’ connection. It is like an impermanent death – being in the arms of your beloved, gazing down into their eyes as if you’re staring into the eyes of God.

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Perhaps its feeling a brief union with that Consciousness that is aware of all other consciousness. Perhaps that spark of divine Being that is within us all knowingly chooses to forget its unity with the rest of creation. Perhaps when it realizes this – at the moment of death, or the final equalization of an energy exchange –  it feels an immense boredom.

Imagine existing as eternity as one omniscient and all-powerful consciousness that can see down every line of cause and effect. The one state of being before the beginning of Time, before the beginning of change – before that oneness turned into two.  Perhaps division was a destined action, and the desire for unity is present within all actions.

 

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Oroboros

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Within one Word, there is all meaning, yet there is also none at all. That one Word is all and any Word – yet there exists one Unknowable Word that has these exact traits. One can hear it within any sentence and every song, for its all the one Word, the one Sentence, and the One Story. As it is known to me, it is what the ancient Northmen called Ginnungagap – the yawning void, an Oroboros of being and non-being.

Within that Unknowable Word, that Yawning Void, lies the shining shapes present within Mimirs Well. These are known to me, as what they were called by the ancients – Runes – each one separate and distinct but part of a single Whole. Each Rune having its own Essence and Meaning.

The great god Odin, (whose ravens are known as Hugin and Munin (Thought and Memory) primordial shaman and ever present wanderer over the liminal boundary between this World (Dumnos) and the Other (Andumnos) as well as the Nine whole worlds that exist within the realm of Life and Death, was the first being to ever realize and grasp ahold of these Runes. Hanging upon the great World Tree, Yggdrasil, Odin had pierced his side with his Spear Gungnir, and while he suffered for nine days and nine icy nights, he finally died and realized the Runes.

Runes – in their limited number and limited meanings – divide existence into more comprehensible parts. The letters I now use to form words, the sounds they make when spoken; each sound having its own sense that to which we attach meaning. This dual nature of existence – that its both void and all – cannot be comprehended without symbols for our consciousness to grasp hold of, dividing the All into the Many. This is both the problem and solution to consciousness – we are all separate individual consciousnesses on one level but ultimately one entire consciousness on another. We need symbols to be able to bridge the gap between our consciousnesses and when two consciousnesses are on the ‘same page’ a micro-version of unity with the primordial is found.

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We – as consciousness – are Time. A single point in the universe can only perceive itself. A line can perceive itself, and the single points below it.

A sphere can perceive the lines and points that make it – yet none of these points, lines, or spheres can perceive change. They exist in the stagnant, ever present – Ginnungagap – the Yawning Void.

The initial blast that caused the universe to form – the exact beginning of Change – was the dawning of consciousness. Without one to perceive change, there can be no change. Without change, there is no Time. We – as consciousness – are Time?

Revelation

Sometime during July or August 2015, I had an intense philosophical realization (or spiritual revelation) that will probably forever follow my thoughts. It was almost visionary in its intensity, and hopefully I’ll be able to accurately portray it. I am no physicist nor mathmagician, neither am I a ‘New Ager’ (anymore).

It began by asking the question, “If a person does wrong, is something faulty with their ‘machinery’ or their ‘software’?” A persons ‘machinery’ being their physical, biological, chemical processes; the DNA that creates these processes, the actual ‘stuff’ they’re made out of. A persons ‘software’ is their psychological makeup, their personality, or their thought processes. I understand this is a dualistic view of what constitutes a person – in reality the two effect each other greatly – but the question I was asking was whether or not a person has complete control over their actions or thoughts.

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My friend and I started out talking about the ‘Big Bang’ – what we observed in our minds eye to be the primal oneness that the multitudinous universe sprung out of. We asked, if we were to entirely destroy this universe and restart it, would it be the same universe playing itself out again? (I need to learn more about quantum mechanics, because that would go into randomness.)

We posited to ourselves, ‘What if everything consisted of one being split into two?’ – like the branches of some great tree. Everything being a binary of decisions in a matrix of binary decisions, 1’s and 0’s being spread out throughout the cosmos.

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Light and dark, up and down, left and right – everything consisting of dualities, and every single atom being the end result of a continuous chain of dualities – 1’s and 0’s.

We then asked ourselves ‘What is Time?’ Ultimately, its a measurement of change. A timeless universe would be a universe in stasis. One lacking in this division of dualities, going from one to two, with each splitting off from the other. We believe a timeless universe would be one that existed before the ‘Big Bang’.

What then is change without something perceiving that change? It is changeless. Timeless.

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So I posit my theory that consciousness ultimately is change, ultimately is time – and thus is everything – just in different levels.

My theory is that a dot is conscious of itself, and what a dot consists of. A line is conscious of itself, and the dots that make it up. A sphere is conscious of the lines that make up that sphere, and the dots below it. However, this ‘consciousness’ does not consist of words – it may not even consist of feelings. It might consist of mere math.

As that sphere becomes more complex, it divides itself off. It becomes more varied chemicals/elements/etc, further increasing in complexity where the conditions are right. It changes. Then it eventually becomes ‘life’ – what we consider biological – which may have ‘feelings’ – since there’s an increasing number of sensory organs.

Then with increasing complexity of interacting changes (minor consciousnesses) the biological consciousnesses further increases its sentience. I would argue that sentience is changes perceiving changes that are perceiving changes, down increasingly to the level of specks of existence.

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Now, if our level of consciousness is time – ‘the fourth dimension’ – who is to say that dimensions above us are consciousnesses (changes) that perceive the change of our own consciousnesses?

This is where I argue that the supreme consciousness is a One that can perceive the change of change.

In my next post I will describe what comes out of this.